Will of chaos

The time we spent in the restaurant was very good and pleasant, the food was fantastic, for me it was an incredible experience as I didn't know any of the dishes, Freya seemed very serious and focused while eating, and everyone enjoyed it in their own way.

We had a pleasant time at the restaurant, Ibuki desperately started eating all the meat dishes and then fell asleep, Freya was savoring the food while trying to identify the ingredients by taste and taking notes in a small notebook, Leo was being fed by Caryna in a loving way, it was a very loving scene between the couple.

Diana, Sophia, and Anton were having a drinking contest to see who could stand to drink the most, I also saw Nira, Kira, and Alice talking about what happened today, Nolan is asleep from what Caryna told me Nolan was responsible for delivering supplies so he spent all day running around to help the Adventurers' Guild.

Tânia is drinking while drawing in her notebook, she was very shaken to learn that the clothes she made a short time ago were in terrible shape, so she started designing a new shipment of combat gear for everyone.

While I saw Layla and Byakko eating a big cake I kept talking to Érica who was feeding Yomi with small pieces of fruit.

It was a nice time, but everyone was very tired, so after an hour we went to the mansion to rest, Érica, Kira, Diana and Ibuki insisted on sleeping in my bed today, so after the women took a shower and then the men all went to sleep.

By the time I entered the room, everyone was already asleep, I wanted to jump into bed and fall asleep now, but before I go to the balcony, I keep looking at the sky, for some reason whenever I'm exhausted, nervous, or confused I want to see the night sky, if I don't I can't get my head in order.

I stand for a few minutes looking at the sky while in my head I replay everything that happened today, one thing, in particular, catches my attention, I remember what we did to the group of rookie killers.

"When did I get so cruel?"  (I)

What I did in that dungeon, the way I devoured that shitty Alchemist, and the way I fought today.

All of this comes to mind at the same time, I look away from the night sky and look at my palms.

Sigh

"I changed."  (I)

"I'm not what I was in the past."  (I)

"But I still can't tell if that's a good thing or a bad thing."  (I)

I look back to the sky, today there are some clouds forming in the sky so I can't see the moons unfortunately but I can still see the stars.

"Change is inevitable, all the people that exist are constantly changing."  (I)

"Someone important once told me that we are a reflection of what we do and the choices we make, I wonder what I would be if I agreed with that argument?"  (I)

Sigh

"None of that matters, it's no use worrying about what's already happened, I'm too tired to think about these philosophical things right now."  (I)

I turn around and walk slowly into the room.

"I'll be whatever I want to be, I won't mind complicated things right now."  (I)

I go to the bed and lie on the bottom of the bed which is the emptiest, I won't make the mistake of lying in the middle of the bed and being almost suffocated during the night as I used to in the cabin in the woods in the past.

After laying my head down I meditate to integrate my levels I gained today, I didn't want to see these notifications today, but I don't think it's right to leave these things for later so I'll do it now before bed so I can take tomorrow off just to relax.

Let's take a look at the results of that exhausting day.

Ding!  Ding!

<[ You gained 13506 EXP from enemy kills ]>

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<[ You gained 5749 EXP for killing enemies by party members ]>

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<[ You learned the skill [ Martial Master Aura: 1 ] ]>

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<[ Your skill leveled up [ Vampirism: 1 > 2 ] ]>

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<[ Your skill leveled up [ Lower Insatiable Stomach: 2 > 3 ] ]>

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<[ Your skill leveled up [ Physical damage resistance: 1 > 6 ] ]>

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<[ Your skill leveled up [ Weak Body Enhancement (Legs): 1 > 4 ] ]>

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<[ Your skill leveled up [ Improved hearing: 1 > 3 ] ]>

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<[ Your skill leveled up [ Nose Improved: 1 > 3 ] ]>

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<[ Your skill leveled up [ Superior Mana Control: 1 > 4 ] ]>

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<[ Your skill leveled up [ Group Coordination: 3 > 5 ] ]>

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<[ Your skill has leveled up [ Improved Strength: 4 > 6 ] ]>

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<[ Your skill leveled up [ Martial Art Fist of Chaos: 4 > 10 ] ]>

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<[ Your skill leveled up [ Major mental disorder: 1 > 3 ] ]>

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<[ Your skill has leveled up [ Sword Handling: 1 > 7 ] ]>

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<[ Your skill leveled up [ Knife Handling: 1 > 7 ] ]>

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<[ Your skill leveled up [ Fire magic elemental affinity: 5 > 7 ] ]>

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<[ Your skill leveled up [ Parallel thinking: 7 > 9 ] ]>

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<[ Your skill leveled up [ Pain Resistance: 4 > 9 ] ]>

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<[ Your skill leveled up [ Leadership: 1 > 2 ] ]>

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<[ Your skill leveled up [ Low resistance to necrotic poison: 1 > 4 ] ]>

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<[ Your skill leveled up [ Resistance to paralysis: 1 > 4 ] ]>

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<[ Your skill leveled up [ Poison resistance: 1 > 6 ] ]>

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<[ Your skill leveled up [ Recovery: 1 > 7 ] ]>

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<[ Your skill leveled up [ Weak Body Charge: 1 > 5 ] ]>

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<[ Your skill leveled up [ Jump: 5 > 8 ] ]>

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<[ Your skill leveled up [ Corrosion: 6 > 8 ] ]>

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<[ Your skill leveled up [ Detect Presence: 2 > 7 ] ]>

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<[ Your skill leveled up [ Great magical body boost: 1 > 8 ] ]>

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<[ Your skill leveled up [ Basic non-elemental magic: 9 > 10 ] ]>

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<[ Your skill leveled up [ Basic Wind Spell: 1 > 7 ] ]>

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<[ Your skill leveled up [ Basic Fire Magic: 4 > 8 ] ]>

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<[ Your skill leveled up [ Assassination technique: 1 > 3 ] ]>

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<[ Your skill leveled up [ Sword Technique: 1 > 5 ] ]>

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<[ Your skill leveled up [ Dagger technique: 1 > 5 ] ]>

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<[ Your skill leveled up [ Blade of Chaos Technique: 4 > 10 ] ]>

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<[ Your skill leveled up [ Basic Magic Circle: 2 > 6 ] ]>

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<[ Your skill leveled up [ Intimidation: 4 > 8 ] ]>

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<[ Your skill leveled up [ Aura of judgment: 3 > 4 ] ]>

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<[ Your skill leveled up [ Aura of Chaos: 3 > 4 ] ]>

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<[ Your skill leveled up [ Martial Master Aura: 1 > 2 ] ]>

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<[ You have acquired the title [ Monster Slayer ] ]>

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<[ You have reached the maximum level ]>

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<[ Your work has reached the maximum level ]>

So many skills leveled up, unfortunately, none of them evolved.

But I was happy to gain one more Aura skill, by the name it must be a skill I gained because of the job I chose before the battle, I'll find out more of that skill tomorrow.

I also have to choose another job, but I'll also save that for tomorrow.

What is really making me anxious is that I reached the maximum level, which means that I must evolve tonight.

"(I hope I grow in this evolution.)" (I)

I also gained a title, by the name of that title I must have won it because of the number of monsters I killed during the battle.

It's been a long day, I'm glad I made so much of the gains from all this that happened, but as I look back on the battle scenes and remember the number of adventurers who died defending the city of Valen, I can't smile at this news like that.

All I can do is make myself stronger, I'm terrified to think that one of those dead adventurers could have been someone in my group.

This wave of monsters only reinforced my thinking that I need strength to defend the people I care about in this dangerous world.

"(I will become stronger to defend you.)" (I)

I take a few deep breaths to calm myself down and clear my mind of these unnecessary thoughts, this is not the time to think about it.

All I want for the next few days is to rest and relax with the rest of my group, that's my plan for now.

But one thing that worries me is my evolution, I'm afraid it will get even smaller, if that happens I don't know if my fragile heart will hold.

I also hope that my appearance doesn't change too much, every time I evolve my appearance changes drastically, for better or for worse this is the best look I've had since I was born in this world, even though I'm not happy with this childish appearance. , at least it's better than Leech or Goblin looks.

I take one last look at the sleeping girls, glad they are safe and well, during the fight against the monster wave I was afraid something might happen to one of them or the others, so after seeing them sleeping so tranquil I close my eyes and surrender to my tiredness and sleep.

"(I'm so tired.)" (I)

Gradually my consciousness falls into darkness as all the accumulated tiredness of today consumes me, I give in to that tiredness until I completely lose consciousness, then I erase.

zzzzzz...

Zzzzz...

zzzz...

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Ding!  Ding!

<[ "EVOLUTION REQUIREMENTS FULFILLED" ]>

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<[ "ANALYZING POSSIBLE EVOLUTION POSSIBILITIES" ]>

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<[ ANALYZING TITLES ]>

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<[ ANALYZING BLESSINGS ]>