Chapter 196
196 you have to care about me the most
About half an hour later, Jiang che suddenly stopped and turned over to lie down at the side.
Shi Yan was surprised,”why are you so cowardly?”
jiang che reached out to hug her. she heard a voice from above her head, ” “Ms. Shi, there’s a limit to your foolishness. Don’t indulge me like this and don’t treat yourself like a human. You were just a little tipsy last night.”
“Don’t you feel pain?”
after a long time, he hugged her tightly and said with an unknown emotion, ” ” miss shi, do you feel insecure about huahua? ”
“Last time, you stood guard outside Jiang Rui’s door for the entire night and unconditionally indulged me. whether it’s your friendship with jiang rui or your relationship with me, do you think that you can only maintain it if you give enough?”
jiang che didn’t realize it before. until just now, she was clearly uncomfortable, but she bit her lip and didn’t say anything. If he hadn’t heard that there was something wrong with her voice, he wouldn’t have noticed.
she was indulging him, unconditionally.
if he continued, she would definitely not refuse.
He was to blame for thinking that she was fine after seeing that she was in good condition the entire day.
he then thought about her attitude towards jiang rui, her friend, and how she not only indulged him but also tried her best to be the dominant one in their relationship.
Perhaps part of this was because of her strong personality, but it shouldn’t be the only reason.
she didn’t want to be in a passive position.
This was actually a sign of insecurity.
Of course, this wasn’t absolute. Not everyone who didn’t want to be in a passive position did so because they didn’t feel safe.
He could tell that she did not have a sense of security, mainly because she had unconditionally indulged him.
The person in his arms did not respond. She seemed to have fallen asleep.
Jiang che hugged her even tighter. miss Shi, I don’t know about other people. But you don’t have to do this in our relationship. you can indulge me appropriately, but don’t indulge me without a bottom line. could it be that in your eyes, i’m the kind of person who only cares about my own pleasure and doesn’t care if you’re suffering or not?”
“No, it’s not.”
the person in his arms responded in a low voice, but the emotions in her voice could not be heard.
“I just don’t know how to get along with others,” she said.
“I used to think that there’s no need to deliberately give anything in order to get along with people, as long as we get along well and treat each other sincerely. but later on, many people told me that i had to pay the price for enjoying so much. i can’t just enjoy without doing anything.”
“but those people who said these things to me used to be very good to me. I’ve been thinking, maybe I didn’t return the same amount of kindness when they were good to me, so they took back the kindness they used to have. i didn’t want to, but none of them cared about my wishes.”
“I know I’m responsible, but they should have discussed it with me, not give me a death order without any warning, leaving me with no right to even express my opinion. Or maybe they’ll give me such an order a few years later. I was only ten years old then.”
I’m not willing to set my future at the age of ten, and I’m forced to do so by others.
they all say that I’ve been indifferent and don’t care about anything since I was young. Actually, that’s not the case. What I care about is that I’m more quiet and don’t like to express myself.
she reached out and hugged him tightly. ” jiang che, i care a lot about you. i want to spend the rest of my life with you. ”
“i don’t want our relationship to end because i didn’t give enough. it’s just a little pain. if i can’t even give you this little pain, what right do i have to ask you to be devoted to me for the rest of your life?”
“and i’m very greedy. i want you to be devoted to me for the rest of your life.”
Jiang Che’s heart ached as if it was being clenched by something.
“Miss Shi, you can’t calculate it like that.”
” a relationship does need both sides to maintain it, but it’s not a bottomless way like yours. ”
“I won’t judge the people and things you’ve met in the past, but I can tell you that I’m not them. I won’t ignore your wishes.”
I admit that I do have some expectations of you. I want you as a person and your heart, but I don’t want you to give without a bottom line.
“I can’t interfere with your past, but from the moment you became mine, I’m going to be with you for the rest of your life. Ms. Shi, I will dote on you and love you. I will treat you with all my heart and soul. So, you don’t have to bear with it when you’re in pain. You have to tell me. ”
” i didn’t. it just hurts a little. it can’t be considered enduring. ”
Jiang che,”Yingluo.”
“Shi Yan, you’re deliberately angering me, aren’t you?”
The person in his arms suddenly wrapped her arms around his neck and kissed him.
The kiss was a little rushed and fierce, unlike her.
“Jiang che,” she said seriously,”I will dote on you, love you, and treat you with all my heart.”
Jiang che, who had his arm around her back, paused and replied, ” “Yes.”
“i’ll tell you when i’m in pain or uncomfortable.”
“yes.”
“Jiang che, I care a lot about you.”
jiang che felt a lump in his throat and hugged her tightly, ” “yes, i know.”
I won’t let you down. You don’t have to worry that I’ll suddenly take back what I’ve done for you. I won’t do that. You can stay by my side in peace.
shi yan wrapped her arms around his neck and buried her face in his neck. she replied in a low voice,”yes.”
then she added, ” jiang che, i don’t care about others. i only care about you. ”
these words sounded a little childish and not like her at all.
Jiang che sighed and said, ” I’m very happy that you only care about me. But miss Shi, I’m not the only one in your life. You still have friends and family. You can give them some of your care. You don’t have to worry about them not cherishing your care. If they don’t cherish it, you can just return that care to me. I will cherish it. ”
“can we do this?” she suddenly looked up at him.
She could, but to be honest, he didn’t want her to spare any attention on other people. It was best if she really only cared about him.
however, he obviously couldn’t say that. her situation wasn’t quite right. if he didn’t guide her well, she would be stuck in a dead end and go back.
The only girl in the Shi family, the eldest young lady who was doted on by thousands of people, was this the doted on by the Shi family? If their Pampers forced people to this state, then they didn’t need their Pampers.
“You can, but you have to remember that the care you give others is from me. if others don’t cherish it, you must remember to return it. don’t be sad because of it, because i will cherish it when i return it. ”
“But I have a request.”
” i can’t give away too much. more than half of what you care about is mine. i have to be the person you care about the most. ”
she looked at him for a few seconds, then suddenly lowered her head and kissed him.”alright, i care about you the most.”
the two kissed for a while. jiang che asked if it still hurt, but shi yan shook her head and said it didn’t hurt anymore.
“Then sleep for a while.” jiang che said.
Seeing her hesitation, Jiang che added, ” “before i went to bed, i asked jiang lin to contact xiao zhao. xiao zhao has already brought you a change of clothes, so you don’t have to worry about waking up too early in the morning and disturbing the rest. i’ll send you to school tomorrow, but i don’t know how to drive. let jiang lin drive. you don’t have to worry that i’ll drive while you’re asleep and tired. sleep in peace.”
“I’ll sleep like this, you carry me.” she lay on him, her voice soft and coquettish.
jiang che chuckled and hugged her tightly, his voice gentle. ” “alright,” he said.