Reborn as the Princess' Knight (GL)

Chapter 70: My real name (II).

Kein's POV

"We considered having a lung transplant but realized- we needed to find a compatible donor."

When I heard that the doctor needed a new pair of lungs without hesitation I told them to check mine out but I was rejected, it needed to be of the same size and of the same blood type.

I tried my best to find her old mother. My searched beard had no fruit and even if I did find her, I would need her consent on giving her lung to save her only daughter to which I was sure she didn't give a damn about.

I fought so many times bringing her to the best hospitals in different countries, not caring if it was breaking my bank. No amount of money would be able to replace a daughter, it was a horrible feeling.

The wait list on the hospital was horrible.

It felt like we were running out of time, each time we left and moved.

The build up stress of the memory of that moment, felt so long ago.

The smell of the hospital, mixed with so many people waiting for their turn, and the never ending sea of nurses walking into the white halls holding a clipboard that could mean life or death for a patient.

Seeing my daughter up on that hospital bed, it's as if I was feeling her pain.

I drank... so many times to the point I was nearly hungover every night I came back from the hospital.

"You... didn't have any healers?" (Rose) asked innocently and I chuckled a little before explaining. "We are... people without magic."

"You mean- no one can heal others or-" she looks rather surprised and conflicted. After all, in this world where magic was basically everything to them. To hear a place where magic didn't exist would break someone's spirit.

"Yes, no one can perform any fancy spells and even summon an animal they want. I really wished we had these [Storage Rings] back in my own world, these things are really convenient when you're traveling." I took a look at my old spatial ring that I was still using to this day, given to me by my Father when we first met.

"In my world magic didn't exist, we couldn't do the things that you have here. When I saw how this world could ease the sickness of someone- I thought that was really wonderful." I continued, while I placed my knees in front of me and I hugged them. "There are so many things... in my old world that I wanted to show you."

From the museums, buildings, art, history and the people.

"I couldn't paint them, I had this little rational fear that someone might find out."

"Find out that-?" (Rose)

"I'm not really the person they thought I was."

I buried my head deeper over the knees and sighed.

"I'm a person from another world, I'm not really the Kein Rosenguard you thought and knew. I was afraid that because of this lie- everything would come crumbling down."

"Lenard would leave me, thinking I'm not really his family."

I was sure he would leave me behind.

"Lord Vincent would be betrayed."

He would stop being my friend.

"Everyone- Oh gosh everyone would think I'm crazy- another world? And I was taking someone else's body? Isn't that what a crazy person would say?"

My hands started to clench into a fist and before I even realized, there were beads of tears running downstream to my cheeks. "And that you would leave me for lying. I lied to you first, I lied to you longer, and I- I just... thought you would hate me for lying."

This is dumb... why am I crying?

Almost ten years of being into this world- I don't have the right to cry.

I don't deserve to cry... I've been given more than I needed. I should be happy- but everything seems to feel so heavy before, to the point it felt like- I was being crushed by a giant boulder of guilt.

"Hah..." I held my hands together and bit my lip. I think I overshared too much but hopefully this is enough. "I'm sorry for suddenly springing this up to you but I just- ?!"

I was taken aback by her arms being wrapped into mine into a fierce hug, her face looking with an expression of worry and relief. Her long lashes could clearly be seen from my view, and her hair tickled the silk of my shoulder.

"You-! You must've wanted to tell someone for so long!" She hugged me tightly, hands were now wrapped around in my waist and I felt my face turning a little scarlet red of color.

"I wanted to tell you all this time. Do you hate me for lying?" I couldn't help but pat her head as she pouted burying her head into my chest.

"No... I'm not, I understand and I'm happy that you trusted me enough to tell me who you really are." She buries her head deeper and the next moment she talks her words were almost a bit muffled. "You're talking to the crown princess who lied to you for as long as I can remember."

All in all, apparently we were in a similar boat.

Knowing that made me feel a little happy that I wasn't alone.

"Natasha had a bit of help, she told me being honest would make things better with you." Natasha's words to me definitely did something. I have to thank Natasha after this, I'm glad Rose took it well. "Even if we're fixing things up- maybe this would've helped in really getting to know- the real me."

"The real you..." (Rose) looked up from my chest and I nodded.

"Up to this point- some of the things I've told you were things Kein would've picked or it was everything about her. Her birthday, favorite color and her family." I listed all the things that I took and made it my own. "Her name."

Kein Rosenguard.

A lovely name, that's not mine.

"I want to get to know you better then, not as Kein Rosenguard but as your real self." Rose stands upright in her seating position before smiling brightly at me. "So... Then Miss personal knight of mine, what's your real name?" she asks.

My real name...

I could tell her right now- but where's the fun in that?

I could practically see her wagging tail if she had one, she was so excited that it made her look so... cute.

Now that's going to be something she's going to need to earn. I leaned in closer to her face then smirked. "What if you give me a kiss first." I told her feeling all smug. "After that I'll tell you my real name-?!"

Without even hesitating or wanting to make me continue my next sentence she pressed her lips against mine.

"Mmph!"

I could feel her tongue asking to let her in to meet mine, she was French kissing me- and I... felt so weak so I did what her tongue asked me to do. It felt like my back was melting- I could feel my body slowly sliding back.

I couldn't even finish telling her my request before she went ahead and pounced on me!

"?!"

Her hands strayed under my blouse, soon enough they were gripping my breast and I- "Ahhh... ngh!"

I covered my mouth immediately after realizing what had come out of it. Everything feels so hot- from my head to toe.

"You moaned." (Rose) tells me while she retrieves her hand and just decides to work her way into taking off my necktie and then unbuttoning my blouse.

My heart felt so heavy and fast, it was like a bullet train on its way to its destination. I think she could feel it too.

"It's rather cute, I wouldn't mind hearing it again." Soon my buttons were off and my white sports bra was out in the open, I could feel the chilly breeze in my chest and I shivered.

Is she really going to do it?

Over the middle of a hill?

Where the only source of light is the lanterns that she made.

I mean outdoor sex is fun but the only thing that's scaring me right now, someone will walk into us and the mood will be gone.

Suddenly I saw Rose frozen on the spot, looking up and down at my current situation. Her whole face became red right after seeing what she did. "Kein- wait... oh no... You only wanted a kiss and not- I'm sorry about your blouse!" she frantically shakes her head, her hands moving in quickly to button my shirt once more.

No, Rose!

I actually want to do it!

The kiss was nice but I wouldn't mind- ugh I'll just show her.

I took her shaking hands that were holding one of the buttons of my blouse and placed it on one of my breasts. "I-I don't want you to stop. Maybe we can go beyond the kiss..." I could feel her hand gently gripping my sensitive skin and I almost moaned again.

Her touch is so electric that I feel pleasure just by letting her feel my breast.

"Beyond kissing... but I haven't had my reward yet?"

I tilted my head in confusion. Her reward?

I facepalmed, right- of course. She wanted to know my name.

"My name... my real name is Maeve."

"And your last name?"

"I need you to work harder for it, if you want to know my last name."