QT: Against My Will

144 3.12.49 – Overdosed – Downfall of Humanity

Ziek left for his tent with an indifferent attitude. But inside, he was having a hard time suppressing his feelings. If grandma didn’t stop him, they could go for hours. He knew that his happiness came from a chemical process. To prevent himself from being miserable, he let himself be happy. However, he was never prepared for the one that occurred in the form of a dangerous drug with a warning: Don’t overdose, take in small quantities. You might get addicted.

He knew it. That’s why he didn’t interact with Bing Shi much during this half a year. Only during the drives in the car, wherever there were people present. He was content. But it’s his birthday. What could go wrong?

So he did it.

He overdosed.

He got to know her better.

Now, he regretted it.

Because what awaited him after reaching such highs? Was to fall lower than he has ever fallen.

Science was all well and good, but once you’re addicted, that’s that. You’d lose control over your mind. Without reasoning, you’d want more, and more, and more.

But his new dealer decided to save him from his misery and prevented him from getting harmed. Ziek got his rationality back. While eating, he tried to think up all the bad things about grandma, like he always did with other girls who he got close to.

.....

She was going to leave. She didn’t care about him. She was obsessed with her dead boyfriend. She was not a virgin like him...hm, but what if it was him who took it? With all the things happening to his body, he wouldn’t be surprised...

Fuck her boyfriend!

Continue!

She was older than him by ten years. She liked to make fun of him. She didn’t know how to fight like Fu Lian. She didn’t know how to cook like Fu Lian. She wasn’t as pretty as Fu Lian. Hm, what else? Grandma was funnier and smarter, and nicer, and cuter, and...

Brain!

Grandma was exactly like his dream girlfriend, that he didn’t know that he had in the first place! He could imagine going on a date with her. Ah, how fun it would be? To hell with her shitty boyfriend! That lucky bastard!

Brain! Focus!

She was ugly when she cried!

Yes! Very ugly!

Then his thoughts switched. Except for him, nobody knew about her vulnerable site. At that moment, he felt similar. Both of them were enduring, surviving...for what?

For the riches? Power? Happiness?

Ziek was having a mental break down as he stared at his unfinished food. ‘One day. It took her one day to fuck me over.’

This would cost him lots of rehabilitation sessions.

· · — · ???· — · ·

One year after the Apocalypse...

No matter how much Fu Lian offered her body to the general or how much food she fed him, Yi Zen still didn’t feel loved. As promised, he took responsibility and continued to act as a wife slave.

“Soo ??,” Bing Shi tapped her pen on the tablet while sitting on the chair inside the command post tent, opposite to the man who was sitting behind his desk with a bad mood. “You were never interested in women. But suddenly, there’s a magnet pulling you towards a beautiful woman. Because you’ve never felt such feelings before, you’ve decided to follow your instincts. After you finally obtained her heart, the magnet disappeared. The question is...what changed you to your old cold, emotionless self? Hm.Hm.Hm ??.” She tapped her pen against her gas mask, “Do you know how these men are called?”

Yi Zen couldn’t believe that he was discussing his sex life with his sister.

“How?” he asked.

“Duck boys,” Bing Shi wrote on her tablet, “After they obtain what they want, they lost interest. Maybe the reason why you never took notice of anyone was because women flock around you headlessly. Being seen as easy targets, you wouldn’t find them challenging at all. You got interested in Fu Lian due to that magnetic resonance and behaved out of character because instinctively, you knew what she wanted. To get her heart, you treated her differently compared to others.”

Yi Zen rested his forehead on his palm, small ice crystal formed on the surface of the desk, “What nonsense is that?” He lifted his gaze as he tried to see through that gas mask. Bing Shi came up with many ideas. And this one sounded the most ridiculous.

Bing Shi returned his gaze, “Then why did you want to run away after what happened between you and Fu Lian? You wanting to spend more time with me is proof that I’m right.”

Yi Zen stood up and walked around the table and crouched before his little sister, “Are you afraid that I’ll go after you?” His mood bitter. Just hearing Fu Lian’s name, and he felt like killing that kitten every time she teleported him into that prison. If it was not for the promise with his little sister...

“I’m not afraid,” the tablet in Bing Shi’s hand was frozen solid, feeling chills running down her legs and hand, she let go of the tablet and grabbed her pepper spray under her sleeve in fear, “It won’t work on me. I’m unobtainable.”

“Right. Unattainable. What’s your solution?” he asked blandly as he stared at his little sister from below. He really wanted to get rid of Fu Lian and considered keeping his little sister. Would he get tired of Bing Shi too? He wondered.

Bing Shi shuddered, his situation was a lot worse than she thought it would be. “Take a break from each other. It might open up your eyes. Maybe you’ll realize that you miss her after a rest. Start anew as friends. If you don’t know how, take our relationship as an inspiration. Don’t forget to blame me; I want to see her reaction.”

“Do you enjoy being the villain?” seeing her nod, he raised his hand to touch her hoodie, “Why do you care?”

“I have to thank you somehow for helping me with the zombies.” Bing Shi avoided his hand, “Don’t waste your precious feelings on me and give them to someone who truly loves you. Be assured; I’m certain you’ll have your happy ending.”