Pursuing My Rejected Alpha

234 Was Lucien Being Selfish?

“Lucien, how are you feeling?”

“Mmm. Alright.”

Ronan stole a glance at his mate.

Lucien had his eyes shut tightly as he leaned his head against the headrest. The passenger seat was tilted a few degrees to the back to grant him some comfort.

“There is a summon by the Werewolf Council for tomorrow morning. Both you and I are required to attend.”

Lucien opened his eyes and turned to look at Ronan.

“What is it about?”

Ronan pursed his lips.

“Apparently, Conrad Woodland initiated it.”

.....

Lucien furrowed his brows and groaned slightly.

“If you are not feeling better, we should not go,” Ronan said. “I will inform the council as soon as we get home.”

“Don’t be silly,” Lucien sighed. “Let’s get it over with. I want to hear what he has to say.”

“... Fine.”

Ronan wanted to carry Lucien in his arms on the way to their apartment, but the latter refused to be treated like an invalid.

“I can still walk, Ronan Silverback,” he said with a frown.

“I know, I just want to carry you,” Ronan said hastily while chasing after Lucien who walked so fast ahead of him.

“No need. Carry me another time.”

Lucien had a thin face. He might be the Luna, but he refused to act spoiled and depend on Ronan. Not in the public at least. Once they got into their apartment, he was a lot more agreeable.

Ronan helped Lucien into the bed and lay next to him.

They cuddled and Ronan rubbed Lucien’s back affectionately.

“Lulu, do you want to eat something?”

“No...”

“Do you want to drink something?”

“No...”

Lucien raised his head and gave Ronan a pitiful look.

“Can you stay with me until I fall asleep?”

Ronan smiled.

“Of course, my baby.”

Lucien closed his eyes.

He fell asleep eventually, but his sleep was restless. In his dream, Lillian gave birth to a healthy baby boy and Ronan cried with joy. Just like Lucrethia said, he was so happy to be a father. The beautiful couple shared a beautiful family moment while Lucien stood at the side like an unnecessary ornament.

He tried to say something, but his throat was tied.

Even the Mind Link did not work.

Lucien kept calling for his mate. Unfortunately, Ronan only had eyes for Lillian and the baby.

He neither answered nor gave Lucien any sign that he heard him.

An unknown force pulled Lucien away from the perfect scene before him. He extended his hand and tried to fight the unknown force, but he ultimately lost.

A string of words echoed in Lucien’s head.

“If you think that he will make a good father, you should allow him to be one. Otherwise, it is rather selfish, don’t you think?”

Selfish...

Selfish...

“No!!!” Lucien shouted in his sleep.

Ronan woke up with a start.

“Lulu? Honey? What’s wrong?”

Lucien breathed heavily while staring at the ceiling.

What was that?

“I don’t know,” he whispered. “I don’t know...”

Ronan pulled Lucien into his arms and showered him with kisses.

“It’s just a nightmare. My love, don’t be scared. I am here for you.”

Lucien was close to crying.

It was not a nightmare.

It was a dream about the future.

Was he being selfish by demanding Ronan to stay faithful to him?

Was Lillian suffering?

Did he deny the little pup his father?

But he too wanted to be happy.

Why could he not be happy?

Why must he give away the one person that he was ever in love with?

Inadvertently, tears started building in his eyes and he started sobbing.

“Lucien...?”

Ronan tilted his mate’s chin.

Lucien was crying.

“Lulu, what’s wrong...?”

The man refused to say anything. He kept shaking his head fervently.

“Alright, alright. Baby, if you don’t want to say it now, you don’t have to. Just know that I am here for you, alright?”

There was nothing else that Ronan could do other than let his mate cry to his heart’s content.

He cursed himself for his helplessness. He wished that he could just take away Lucien’s sadness and throw it far, far away.

Unfortunately, he could not.

Not as long as Lucien did not open up to him.

This was something that Lucien must do on his own. If Ronan forced him, he was only going to get hurt.

Hopefully, the warmth of his embrace could sneak into Lucien’s heart and tickle him to come out of his shell.

While Ronan soothed his mate with soft words, his eyes shone fiercely in the darkness.

Annalynne, just what did you say to Lucien to make him cry like this???

There was nothing Ronan wanted to do more than call up Annalynne to question her, but it was already late at night. Judging from Annalynne’s personality, she might just whine at Lucien right after, complaining about being bullied.

Arggghhhhh... Women!!!

Overcome with exhaustion, the Alpha eventually fell asleep.

When he woke up the next morning, Lucien was not on the bed.

Ronan found him in the kitchen, making coffee.

“Lulu? Good morning, are you alright?”

Lucien turned to look at his mate, his neutral expression betrayed nothing.

“Of course. Get ready, Ronan. We need to leave soon.”

Lucien walked past Ronan to get into the bathroom, but Ronan pulled at his wrist and stopped him.

“Lulu, do you not need to talk to me about something?”

.....

Lucien wiped at his face, covering the upper half of his face with his palm.

What was he supposed to say? That an elderly lady with stunningly similar eyes to Ronan’s mother told Lucien that the latter was being selfish?

He couldn’t say that out loud, could he?

In fact, if it were any other random lady, Lucien might just tell her that it was none of her business.

Unfortunately, the lady looked so much like the late Lady Adele Fangblade.

Lady Fangblade supported the relationship between Ronan and Lucien, but what would she say if she knew that Lucien secretly hated the fact that Ronan was having a baby with someone else?

Would Lady Fangblade too think that Lucien was selfish?

Lucien was afraid to know the answer.