My Dearest General: It Has Always Been You

"You have your own place. Why do you have to follow me home?"

Disregarding Ru Meiqi's words, Jin Renguang squeezed himself into her apartment, pulled out new slippers from the shoe cabinet with ease as if it was his own home. Ru Meiqi's brows knitted and didn't budge from the door.

Helpless, Jin Renguang turned and pulled her in, closing the door behind her. "Alright, what did I do wrong again? Why are you suddenly angry at me?"

Ru Meiqi gave no answer. Seeing that she was unable to chase him out for now, she sauntered toward the kitchen and fetched a can of beer from the refrigerator. However, before she could even take a sip, Jin Renguang snatched it away. 

"Hey!" She exclaimed angrily. "What do you think you're doing?!"

Jin Renguang put the beer atop of the refrigerator and pressed her onto the kitchen counter, perfectly taking advantage of his full height. When his arms caged her on both sides, Ru Meiqi was so overwhelmed by his strong presence that it was getting harder to breathe..

She tried to push him away but the man didn't budge even a bit. The taut muscle on his arm flexed against her palm and Ru Meiqi retracted her hand as if scalded.

"Tell me." His sharp eyes and fierce features softened, his voice even more so. "Tell me, okay?"

If any members of the SCI squad were to see their Captain deliberately lowered his voice to incite pity from a woman, they would definitely be shocked out of his wits.

No one knew that Jin Renguang was a very sly person. He could use any means necessary to achieve his goals, rebellious with boundless courage. It contrasted with his righteous, strict and disciplined image he showed in front of others.

No one knew, except for Ru Meiqi.

She sucked in cold air and spat out through gritted teeth. "Shameless bastard!"

Jin Renguang chuckled, head leaning forward as he pressed his nose on the back of her ear, taking in the sweet scent of her perfume. His warm breath sprayed on her skin, forcing her to shrink her head back. "You already know that I am a shameless bastard, so why don't you tell me? Or is it that…you want to see how much further I can go?"

Ru Meiqi glared, ready to rebuke. Nonetheless, she wasn't given any chance as Jin Renguang directly sealed her lips, swallowing any protest she might throw out. He grasped her jaw and exerted a bit of force. The pain caused Ru Meiqi to gasp and shameless bastard Jin used the opportunity to slip his tongue inside, teasing her gum back and forth and entangled with her tongue.

Ru Meiqi struggled, hit and clawed him on his arm, nails piercing onto his skin. But it was as if he knew no pain as he pressed forward, lifting the woman up onto the counter. Their lips almost separated during the movement but he proceeded to push her knees apart and squeezed in, smoldering her with kisses again and again.

No, it couldn't be called kisses. It was rough, raw, almost violent with the intent to dominate.

It was almost like they were fighting through this kiss.

Ru Meiqi bit down on his tongue ruthlessly, blood spreading between the exchange of their saliva and breath. Yet Jin Renguang persisted as he kissed Ru Meiqi to the point where the woman's head turned blank and her struggle weakened. In the end, she was dizzy and had to hook her arms around his neck for support.

Only then did he slow down, the force softened greatly, turning the tyrannical kiss to a gentle and passionate one, full of fervor and affection.

As if they were truly a pair of lovers.

Tears sprung up Ru Meiqi's eyes for some reason, sliding down her cheek onto their lips. Jin Renguang paused as he pulled away slightly, lips trailing up as he licked her tears and kissed her eyelids. "Don't cry." His hoarse and deep voice sounded. "Qiqi, don't cry."

The familiar nickname cracked Ru Meiqi's defense even more. Even though she was crying, she still used the opportunity to glare at him, cursing softly. "Bastard, pervert, jerk, idiot."

"Yes, yes, I am a bastard, pervert, jerk and idiot." He bumped his forehead onto hers. "What else?"

Ru Meiqi almost died out of anger. She should have known that she couldn't ever handle this thick skinned beast as early as fifteen years ago. Yet just like a moth drawn to the flame, even though she knew that the fire could burn her to ashes, she still couldn't resist getting closer and embracing it.

Her hands pressed on the back of his head. Jin Renguang lowered his head obediently, his large build exuded hot pheromones and dangerous bursts of power, but right now, he was akin to a docile puppy as he let the woman bite his chin, jaw and nose to her heart's content.

He hugged the petite woman, almost enveloping her into his chest, hand stroking her back in comfort.

Ru Meiqi's body couldn't help relaxing and she opened her eyes to look into his piercing dark eyes. These were the eyes who had seen countless inhuman and cruel cases, but strangely, Ru Meiqi felt like nothing had changed with the way he saw the world.

She couldn't help but wonder, if that year she tried to make him stay, if she was more honest with her own feelings, would everything have changed between them?

Instead of this ambiguous, untitled relationship, would she have the right to stand by his side?

"Renguang…"

"Hmm?"

"Do you love me?"

He answered without a hint of hesitation, "I do."

Instead of being happy, she only felt sourness and bitterness welling up in her heart.

Jin Renguang used his thumb to wipe her cheek and only then did Ru Meiqi realize that she was crying again. Damn it, since when was she so weak? More importantly, why did she only show this weak and pathetic side of hers in front of him?

Ru Meiqi had conducted numerous analyses of human psychology, but at this moment, she was unable to understand her own feelings.

"But I don't love you," she retorted.

He chuckled. "Little liar."

Ru Meiqi didn't answer. She turned her head away to look outside the floor to ceiling window which overlooked the entire city from the 38th floor. The lights twinkled, glimmering like the Milky Way she had seen from the night sky on her high school graduation party.

That year, she wasn't a criminal psychologist nor was he a crime investigator. They were only Ru Meiqi and Jin Renguang, two teenagers who focused on the present, who thought that love could conquer all, that they would be together until the end of time. 

Ru Meiqi was the well known good student and teachers' favorite, but with Jin Renguang, she learned how to lie and skip class, slipped out of school from the back door, riding on his motorcycle in the middle of the night, all kind of things that could make her teacher vomit blood upon knowing.

Yet only with him, Ru Meiqi felt alive.

Jin Renguang had graduated four years earlier, but he still came to Ru Meiqi's graduation party.

Amidst the boisterous party, he pulled her away as they snuck out in search of thrill and excitement, seeking for a place without people and inadvertently encountered a meteor shower. That was also the day when Ru Meiqi had her first kiss. Up to this day, she could still remember the clumsy way he kissed, causing their teeth to knock against each other.

Her first kiss, first love, first intercourse, first heartbreak, it was all given to this man.

He nipped on her earlobe, pulling her out from the spiral of memory. "What are you thinking of?"

Ru Meiqi turned her head back and saw his fully mature, handsome and suave features. It was hard to associate him with the red haired gang leader who wore his uniform sloppily. She scoffed, "I am thinking of how ugly you are."

Jin Renguang was stunned. "You are the first person who's ever said that I am ugly aside from my mother."

Ru Meiqi rolled her eyes exasperatedly. She regained her wits and tried to push him away once again. "Go back!" She gritted her teeth. "Don't you have to return to your family? Don't you have to visit—" The words died down in her throat. Ru Meiqi closed her eyes and cursed inwardly. Now, she had let the cat out of the bag.

Jin Renguang instantly clung to her sentence and didn't let go. "Visit who? Her?" There was an unprecedented coldness in his tone as he spoke.

Ru Meiqi sneered. "No matter how you say it, she's still your wife."

He corrected with a frown. "Former wife."

That's right, Jin Renguang, the capable and acclaimed Captain of the Special Crime Investigation Squad, was a married man until five years ago.

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A/N: today's update is faster cos I was using my phone to update for the first time *cry* yes I clicked wrong but enjoy~

Are you surprised Σ(°ロ°) I have given a bit of foreshadowing earlier. You might want to retrace back to Chapter 134 - Let's Play a Game, Shall We? if you want to understand more. The person Granny Kong was talking about was Jin Renguang's deceased wife ^^

Why does he seem to hate her? Why did Jin Renguang marry even though he has Ru Meiqi? Well, you will know it slowly...o(´^｀)o

Ru Meiqi and Jin Renguang in high school = well achieving student x rebellious gangster