Her Husband is My Lover

Xavier got inside his car thinking about things that George told him. He has no idea what he is thinking right now but just felt that this plan would work out well and he can his and Valentina dream will come true.

He started the engine and started driving thinking about the plan. 

"Is Dad... Changing?" Xavier asked with a sigh as he drives.

"What is the cause of his change? Me?" Xavier asked himself.

"But he didn't cared about me until now... Then why suddenly?" Xavier asked as he sighed.

"He is really confusing... But, It's obvious that he will get benefit with this the most." Xavier said to himself. 

"Yes... He will try his best to make me accept this too... But... Can I do this? Can I betray Valentina? What if she gets to know about the real truth? Will she try to understand me and accept me? Or else... Will she see me as a betrayer?" Xavier asked as he took a deep breath.

"I am not sure... How things will go? I am just scared to do anything right now... I just don't want to mess up things... I already made many people lives a hell... I don't want to do more..." Xavier said to himself as he took a deep breath. 

"Everyone lives will get so hard if I did anymore mistake... And if Valentina gets to know everything then she will not forgive me ever... Never... She will kill me... Heck with the love... But she will become a woman, who I can never expect too..." Xavier said as he sighed. 

"I am scared if I can do this right now... I don't want to risk anyone... But... We can live happily if she doesn't get to know about the truth..." Xavier said as he took a deep breath.

"What should I do?" Xavier asked himself as he looked out of the window as he drives.

"Can I Iive my life guilty infront of her if I live with her?" Xavier asked as he groaned.

Xavier isn't at all sure about what is going on around him for right now... He doesn't know what to choose right now because whatever he thinks seems hard for him right now... Taking a decision means, made him feel hard for him... He doesn't want to do anything wrong from now on... As he did with Rose... By listening to his Dad and Married Rose... The whole wrong doing was his father... But just the blackmail made Xavier life hell... He is trying his best to make things alright but there is no way foe him to do anything right now... Everything is just struck for right now... And things are really getting out of his hands right now... That is getting way too much for him. And it's making him feel sensitive and Rose behaviour day by day showing him hell... 

She is trying her best to get close to him... But not because of her father plans? That made him curious of her... Because if not for an heir... Why will she do all this? For pleasure? 

That made sense to him... Because Xavier is so sure that, Rose doesn't love Xavier. It just that she is obsessed over him... And she can't at all able to seduced him... Before marriage... She choose to marry him... For her pleasures?

That made him feel so disgusting in her... He never knew Rose can fall this low for just her pleasure... And then there is her Dad... Who wants the Avalanzo's empire... Xavier chuckled as he saw how disgusting people can low too... And he can think that... Because his father was the one who got too low for something like that... That made them bought here until now... Xavier feels ashamed on his own father... For making things hard for him... He doesn't at all deserve to live on this earth... But Xavier couldn't do anything... Because he is his father and he should do this for him... Jsut because he gave birth to him... And not to forget, that his mother will be the first one to feel Vunerable if anything happens to George... He can't at all take any risks with his family... Not right now... They both looked after him so well but... He can't betray his own family... For the girl he loved... Both are really important to him right now... And he can do anything for them both... 

His family and for the girl he loved. Xavier should balance both...

He knows that, George doesn't like Valantina or her family... While Valantina doesn't like George... 

He doesn't know how things goes... From now... If he accepts the plan that his father made... A few minutes ago... That doesn't at all seems bad... 

And if he accepts then, things so suddenly change... He will feel guilty for sure... He can't at all accept himself... And can't at all show the love for her when their is guiltyness in his heart that is making his heart break into pieces. 

If God give him any chance to go to back in time then he would take a good use of the time... And would made things alright... But there is nothing like that can happen... 

This is really that he needs to face... He can't at all Run away from thing's that is making him scare...

 If not now... Then never... If not now... He can never do anything.... He can never open up infront of Valantina... He wanted to make her his wife... Only his wife. He loves her and wants to love her till his last breath. She is one the woman who made him into a man... Or else... He would be a person who used to fuck around the slut... 

She turned him into a person who is so capable of doing something today... But that was taken away by his own father... And made him just helpless right now...

He hates his father right now... But at the same time... He can't hate him even though, he did something... That is just so bad for someone... And can even make him feel betrayed.